Fear Sucks

Fear sucks! I don’t just mean that it isn’t fun to have that churning anxiety in the pit of your stomach, but it literally sucks the life out of you. You can go from a spunky life loving person to a hollow shell when you let fear seep through the cracks. 

I am not going to sit here and tell you to have no fear. That is impossible and a healthy dose of fear is good for us; it keeps us safe.  I will tell you that life is much better when you let the fears you hold so tightly go.  

What do I know about fear? I have a confession to make. When I moved to Nashville at 18 years old I thought that I was going to rule the world. I believed it. I knew in my gut that someday everyone would know my name.  Two years later, I am singing a slightly different tune. 

It's not that I don’t want to believe those things, it is that I limit myself from believing those things with the constant chorus of, "you’re not good enough."   Over the last couple of years I have experienced rejection, heartbreak, and circumstances that I could not have ever dreamed.  Unbeknownst to me, fear was beginning to seep in through the crevices. Little by little it began to infiltrate my thoughts and cause me to doubt everything about myself. Instead of standing up to the voices that told me I was a nobody, I started to believe it. Why? Because I was terrified it was true. What if I was a nobody? What if all the naysayers were right and I never amounted to anything? Once I let a little bit of doubt in, it became easier and easier to succumb to the dream crushing hands of fear than to resist.

The worst part is that there is no cure.  At least not a cure in the way we think of it. There is no pill you can pop or shot you can ask for to make it go away. The only real antidote for fear is to look it straight in the face and say, “I don’t care!” You have to understand that the reward is much greater than the risk of not even trying.  Not trying is failing.

What happens if I never become a household name?  What if I never have a hit song on the radio?  At least I will know I tried.

When I start to feel doubt and fear whisper in my ear I grab it by the neck and throw it out the window.  Then I do something that scares me.  And you know what?  I almost always hold my head a little higher and feel a little more confident than I did before.

When I look back on my life I want to say I jumped and if for only a few seconds I was flying free and unburdened by doubt and uncertainties.  I want to know I gave it everything I had.

Sydney St. George